Showing posts with label happyMYA. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happyMYA. Show all posts

Friday, February 1, 2013

beautifulSOUL

it's been a while since my last blog entry. but i really hope i can write more this year.  i am writing this with a really happy heart.  2012 ended with a big surprise, that is, finally getting myself to say that "i am ok. i am exactly where God wants me to be. i am ok. healed, stronger..." it's amazing to see that the past year flew somewhat fast. it was like waking up one day and i knew at that point that the struggle is over, and that at last, i am ready to flap my wings. yes, the Mya is no longer ligaw... she is now ready to fly high..

although it was only during the last quarter that self re-construction was over, i have every reason to celebrate 2012.  i will have a separate entry for my past year summary, in the meantime, allow me to let you know that since i am now flapping my wings, i believe it's also best to change name. of course, MyangLigaw will always be a special part of me. she is, after all, my epitome of a strong being..
 hindi kailanman matatawaran ang tatag ng loob na ipinakita at itinaya niya.  walang alinlangan na hinarap niya ang hirap na pinagdaan, pati na ang takot at lungkot na niyakap ng buong-buo.  si MyangLigaw ay patunay na ang buhay, mahirap man, ay may taglay na kagandahang ipamamalas sa bawat nilalang... at ang pag ibig ay parang majika na patuloy na mag aanyaya sa atin na bumangon at harapin ng may pag asa ang mga nakalaan sa atin...
and as i face this year with a happy and hopeful heart, i will keep telling myself that i am blessed in a lot of ways.. and that around me are people who are always ready to join me in my flight (even with broken wings)..

i am scarred. and i say that with pride and great owning.

i am scarred, and that makes me a beautiful and lovely soul all the more.   

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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

crescentMOON

masaya ako ngayon.
naluluha ako sa sobrang kasiyahan.
nararamdaman ito ng puso ko.
pero batid ko din ang alinlangan.
ang pangamba na kapag nabigong muli,
hindi ko na alam kung paano mag simula uli.
kung paano bubuohin ang sarili.

masaya ako ngayon.
abnormal ang tibok ng puso ko ngayon.

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Monday, November 5, 2012

Monday, October 22, 2012

eaglesWINGS

its exactly 2 weeks ago when someone asked me how i am doing, and i heard myself saying "im okay. i am happy."

i cried when i realized that after a very long time, it was only on that day that i said "i am happy." those were happy tears of course. finally, i know that my wings are stronger and are ready for its next big flight.

in introspection, i know that i really cannot change things anymore. what i have now is way different with what i used to have. i may have lost some people along the way, but my life would have been colorless if not for them anyway.  i may have not known this side of me if i did not risk and go out of my comfort zone. i may still be afraid of death if i did not see and experience dying.

life will always be a big mystery in many ways. but one thing for sure, what are written in the stars will fall in its place according to the Master's perfect time.

i miss naga. i miss adnu. i miss the people. i miss my nagaMoOn.

but i am happy where i am now.
finally, i have learned to embrace that i am exactly where God wants me to be.

i am teary-eyed now, but yes,
along with this big sigh coming, is my heart and souls' whisper that
i am happy.
i am okay.
i am home.

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Saturday, June 30, 2012

runningHEALS


I am not a good runner, but I love doing it.. i love the rush it causes inside me.. the experience of sweating is like adding up time to my life’s hourglass.. and the sound of my breathing gives me that fire to push and go beyond my limits.

one of the first things I included in my bucketlist many years ago was to join a marathon.  I first joined the milo marathon in 2008.. for beginners like me, the 5k route felt like a full marathon already (im sure journeying james would not agree that 3k & 5k distances won’t make up the definition of a marathon)..  nonetheless, reaching the finish line was more than a great experience for me. 2009 Milo Marathon came and it was really fun to be running with via yang and Pilosopong Tasyo.  This time though, the finish line was not just a completion but a gift celebrated with people dear to me. i never saw myself running on a regular basis during those times, but I made sure I join if there were opportunities for it.

Until I decided to leave home and start a new life here in the metro.. I had no friends. Worst, I was like trapped in the past and in the memories of home.  Everything around me was lonely that I felt I needed to run non-stop to deviate myself from all the pain.  Aquaman advised me to start running.. and just keep running until it melts the negativities away.


Then I started to find comfort in every time I spent with running.. I was still alone but it started to fill me up in mysterious ways.  I was still lonely, but every finish line brought me to a different level of bliss. I then found myself joining more marathons.  I wasn’t into making my best time, rather, I just made sure I enjoyed each run I did. http://www.runningMYA

i consider my runs even more special because I get to take part with the causes they were made for.  Most, if not all runs are organized for a good cause. It’s like hitting two birds with one stone: I run and I help. Not to forget, I started to gain friends who were also into the sport which more or less allowed me to open my doors to building new friendships. it was becoming more like gifts given to me.

2012, I am happy that once again, ill be running my third milo marathon this july.  I am not actually too prepared for it, but just like any run that I do, ill do it for the cause and the happiness it shares with me.  I am really excited that this year’s milo marathon will mean more and more and more shoes for children who need one.  Just thinking of the happy faces of the children who would be receiving their shoes makes me want to cry happy tears while dancing around. I am just really thankful that there are so many generous souls ready to give their share.


I’m running the 21k distance and hopefully I complete it injury-free. It will be nearly two years now since I embraced running, and I am very happy to say that I have ran quite well.  I may not yet be whole right now, but I am definitely a lot better and stronger, in my heart, mind,  and spirit.


Running did not really teach me to forget what love is.  rather, it taught me to love more even if you are still broken.  i'll continue to run as i continue to heal.  because at the end of the day, just like reaching the finish line, letting go and moving on is not a sprint but a journey to be embraced. 

Ako si MYAngligaw, at ito ang kwento ko. What’s your running story?

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Check out milo marathon website for more details http://www.nestle.com.ph/milo/marathon/thecause_about.html

Sunday, May 6, 2012

happy33

 i just turned 33. oh boy! another year older. :)

my age was never an issue for me. although a lot of people love to joke about my age, it never goes down to my nerves.  probably because age is just a number for me.  and so, turning 33 still merits a celebration!

it was a real deal when i first received my first text of the day.  haha.. God surely knows how to make someone truly happy. day at the office was a mixture of lovely greetings and cute gifts. i received a mc donalds muffin with cheese and a greeting card from my officemate's children (isyan, mine, and brian). papa bear also gave me my favorite belgian waffles (yummy!)..  but what was hilarious was receiving this ube hopia from an officemate.  he did not know that the color is like my kryptonite. i took the gift anyway, but told him i am not going to eat it.  we had a big laugh at it. :)


my sisters (and their boyfriends) and our housemates prepared something for me as well. i was like this little kid whose eyes got too excited upon seeing big-multicolored-balloons on the floor.  bhem prepared desert for all of us.  it was really so sweet of her to do that.   


i also received these cute greeting cards from dyllan and dynelle.  they're really so cute.  they also showed me their singing and dancing skills to make me happy during the salo-salo.  my sisters also had fun watching them.  it was truly a blast.  their energy was contagious. 


the day's celebration was simple but it was more than enough.  how i wished my papa and mama is here with us for the celebration, but just hearing their voices make me feel they're also around.  greetings from friends at home was a gem too. i must though admit that i still cried after realizing i miss someone so bad.  

at the end of the day, i slept feeling blessed with so much. i am with people who supports and love me; i love what i am doing at work; my boss is sending me to school which is really exciting; i am improving on my swimming skills; and my sisters have really good boyfriends.  

i just turned 33. oh boy! another year older.  not complete.. but happy :)

thank you Lord!

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Thursday, April 5, 2012

surfingBALER

included in my 2012 bucket list is to experience surfing in baler, aurora.  it's a big joy that i was able to have this dream come true with my lovely sisters, their boyfriends and my office mate, rice queen. we had the trip planned with the help of gafa tours. i decided to go for a travel agency instead of doing the trip on our own.  besides, i had a good experience with gafa during my sagada adventure.  


baler (capital of aurota)  is a third class municipality in the province of aurora.  it is located northeast of manila and is passable by bus and private vehicles. a lot of people mistake baler as part of the south as it was initially part of the province of quezon until it was made capital of aurora.

i was a little apprehensive to push through with the trip because of the heavy rains during the week.  but since everything is set to go and gafa cleared that there is zero storm to happen, we pushed with the trip.  in my mind i was saying, pursuing this trip because of the kind of weather is added adventure.

we left manila round 1:00 am and took the bulacan, nueva ecija and nueva vizcaya route. it was raining during the entire trip and i did wonder how the rest of the tour would go.  it was also scary passing through a number of landslides.  rice queen was really scared and i just give her a smile every time we see traces of land erosion.

we finally reached our hotel, bayler view around 7:30 am.  it was almost a seven hour trip.  kuya marlon , our driver/tourguide/photographer said that the trip could have been shorter if there was no traffic.  nonetheless, we were just happy to reach baler safe and sound.


the hotel was just along the sabang beach.  giant waves greeted us as we approached the hotel.  it wasn't a huge place but i really loved the atmosphere and the nature that surrounds the place.  we went inside our rooms to prepare for breakfast and for the day's adventure.


our first stop for the day was the museo de baler.  just like other museums, it houses artifacts found in the lands of baler during the pre/spanish times. the artifacts were few but i really loved how the way they captured and presented their native ilongots.  it's always a good experience to visit a place in the Philiipines and get to know first their culture.  it brings you to a deeper appreciation of what our country was and what it is now.


next stop was a visit to the house of the first lady of manuel quezon, the aragon's house.  it wasn't as old as one thinks it is.  i guess the house had been through renovations.  the things inside are not as old like those from rizal's house in calamba but it still tried to show information about life of our first president, manuel quezon.


one thing that i was also looking forward to was the visit to the baler church.  it was of course made more famous because of the movie baler (2008) which starred anne curtis and jericho rosales.  the siege of baler (i admit) is one story in the philippine-spanish history that i admire.  looking with the eyes of a Filipino, the story of spanish soldiers heroically defending baler against filipino forces for 337 days was truly remarkable and speaks much of patriotism.  i believe that like any other soldier, this event captured the loyalty of soldiers to their beloved country. it was a different feeling being able to set my feet on these grounds, the church being a witness to love, patriotism, and courage.


we had  a quick trip to the ermita hill where we got a full view of the entire sabang beach.  it was truly breathtaking.


we were not yet bound for manila but we decided to drop by the pasalubong center for something we can bring home.  like other provinces in the Philippines, baler is also known for its various coconut-made products.  the stores had native products like wallets, hats, purse, and a lot more that were made from coconut palms.  in terms of their delicacies, baler also offers their famous suman.  i am not a suman-fan but when i went to manila, it's one food that excites me.  their native suman (unlike those i usually have in bicol) already has this sweet taste so you won't need anymore sugar for dipping.  it's sold by bundles of 5 and costs 25/bundle.

after the pasalubong center, we decided to have our lunch at kusina de baler.  they were offering lutong-bahay food. it was a perfect way to have lunch in a cold weather.  we had bicol express, bopis, pork fillet, ginisang upo and sisig.  some of us tried their famous papaitan soup.  the place is a great option for those who are looking for lutong-bahay recipes and affordable menus. kusina de baler is located at the heart of downtown baler.



having a wonderful lunch and a cold weather were good invites to a quick snooze.  we all headed back to the hotel and had our siesta.  we got up at 3:00pm and prepared ourselves for the ultimate challenge of all, surfing.  




the weather was still bad and it was freezing cold.  but i guess, no bad weather can stop the visitors of baler not to enjoy the waters and play with the big waves.  we are not a group of swimmers, but the feeling of adventure pulled us to try surfing and just have a blast.
doing the "shaka" sign of Hawai... and trying the waves.. AMAZING BLISS! :)
each of us had our own instructor.  we had a quick lesson on surfing and before we all knew it, we were with with the waves already. sabang beach is perfect for beginners because the water is not too deep but the waves are really big.  it's made even perfect because the water is not very salty so it was really eye-friendly.  that way, beginners will have higher chances of learning fast (i just think so :) ).  i was looking at my group mates and i was really happy that we are all having the time of our lives.  my surfing experience was really one hell of an adventure.  it was love at first encounter with the waves. (big sigh)... really.


 i am also so proud of my sisters, especially lynette who isn't the out-door type.  she also gets cold easily that's why she isn't a fan of cold places.  i was even worried that she won't push through with the activity because of the cold weather.  but probably, because is it was a sisterhood trip, she made her way to trying it for herself.  i rejoiced when i saw her up on her surfboard.  truly, it's an achievement for her.  she even got injured during her early attempts but it didn't stop her from trying again. (big sigh).. i am a proud sister. :)


what's also great is that this trip was a time to bond with my sisters' boyfriends and my office mate, rice queen.  although i have known them for quite a time already, trips have a way of deepening friendships and making it more special.

we had dinner at the hotel because it was too cold to go out and explore downtown.  we had scallions and tuna rice, mixed seafood in oyster sauce, grilled marlin, sinigang and mixed vegetables.  i guess our tired bodies deserved a sumptuous dinner.  after eating, we all headed back to our rooms and sleep. we didn't stay up late.  probably, everyone was tired because of the surfing lessons.  then again, the pain was all worth it.

good morning baler!! we woke up early and had our 7:00am breakfast.  it was really too cold but the cold breeze was at the same time fresh and sweet. i had hotsilog and after a long time of not drinking coffee, i had a few sip of it.  after all, a good morning (as they often say) deserves a good date with a hot coffee.
we were headed to cunayan falls but when we were nearly there, bridge waters did not allow us to get through. kuya marlon said that it was risky for us to proceed as it may affect the car engine and may get us into more trouble.  it was really too bad so we went back to the hotel.  we just watched the surfers and chill out for the rest of the morning.

we wanted to reach manila early so we decided to leave the hotel an hour early from our original schedule. we  went to gerry shans place, a restaurant that serves chinese and seafood.  what better way to enjoy the trip but have a full blast of food too.  we opted for the P150.00 eat-all-you-can (not left over food) offering.  it was one bon appetit experience.  there was more than 14 offering in the menu (yang chow rice, pork adobo, fish fillet, crispy salted squid, papaitan, sinigang, kaldereta, kare-kare, butterd chicken, fried pork chop, grilled liempo, fish with tofu in oyster sauce, kilawin, vegatable salad, pansit bihon, spaghetti, club house, cassava cake, suman, and wateremelon).  bottomless ice tea was also served on the side. it was indeed a festive lunch.  :)

inside the balete tree :) so cool!! 
heading home, we also stopped for the balete park.  the park is also a common visitors' site in the baler.  the balete tree is more than 500 years old.  it was a kinda creepy sight but at the same time interesting.  we went inside the tree and i can't help but imagine the movie peter pan. the tree, huge as it is can really house people inside it.  amazing. :)

as we leave baler, we took pictures at the arch as a sign of our happy experience of the place.  it's an experience that will deserve a place in my 2012 happiness jar.  thank you Lord for this.  :)

hey baler, see you again. :)

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for more pictures of our surfplus baler trip, 
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Friday, March 30, 2012

happy33

the past two years have been a great challenge for me. i must admit that it was the toughest of my life experiences so far.  it did brought me to long days of drought and eventually death.  but as they say, death always leads to resurrection. like magic, i woke up one day feeling that the healing is on its way.

there is much to celebrate and much to be thankful for. i thought that what better way to celebrate my 33rd birthday than to share blessings and dare to go bolder and be stronger.

i hope that you join me in this cause. :)


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Sunday, March 11, 2012

samMOON

one of my favorite parts in the book i am reading right now... 

sometimes i worry there's something wrong with me.  sometimes i worry i don't actually feel things regular people do.  often i am watching the world rather than actually living in it.  it's not just that i feel distant from the world.  the thing that worries me is that a lot of times, i feel distant from myself.  i watch myself like i'd watch an actor in a movie.  i think, i observe, i process, but i don't feel anything.

have you ever felt that way? have you ever sat at the funeral of your great-aunt, for example, and worn a solemn expression on your face and tried to tell yourself that the ways in which it was sad, without actually feeling sad at all?

have you ever met somebody who said, "oh my God, that's so funny!" all the time, but never actually laughed? i'm worried that's me.

when my parents split up when i was in fifth grade, i said all the things a sad kid says in that circumstance.  i even wrung out a few tears.  when they got back together ten months later, i shared in the happiness.  but for me it was or at least into believing i felt something - but it didn't come naturally.  the emotions certainly didn't rush over me like a wave.  i was heir eager host, never their victim.

maybe that's really lucky; i don't know.

but the flip side of experiencing pain abstractly i that you experience pleasure that way too.  sometimes heather and i will be eating a romantic dinner together or making out in the park, and it feels really good and everything, but i find myself wondering if i'm missing out on something.

i think this is the reason i can't get over gaia moore.  i think it's the reason why i'm intensely attracted to her and repelled by her at the same time.  when i'm with her - when i even think of her - i feel things.  i feel a wave brewing just out of reach, building and swelling into a breaker of dangerous proportions.

so maybe you an see why i have mixed feelings about getting close to gaia.  i'm not sure i want to lose control.  i mean, who would willingly turn himself into a victim?

maybe that's what love is - i don't know.

- - fearless (francine pascal) pp248-250- -

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Sunday, February 26, 2012

number5250

the ateneo center for educational development (aced) helps in uplifting public basic education in the country.  in their 15th year anniversary, a fun run was organized to raise money, support and awareness of the university's work toward public school development. particularly their feeding programs for public elementary schools.
i am really happy to start my sunday morning with the run... and happier to be with new running friends.. i am not yet so sure of my run-time but i am just glad i finished it after suffering two times from side stitches.. hai.. it still pisses me off that until now i haven't improve well on my breathing..
with arnel #5254 winning 3rd place for 5k category
with friends from the MIS dept and facilities management office
with voltaire winning 2nd place for 10k category
boys will always be boys.. going gaga over #allysaValdez
it also makes me proud to have friends who had their first run but at the same time bring home the crown.. it's always a wonderful feeling to see people do good in what they do... of course, hats off to rice queen, mommy D, ruppert, atty no case yet, & ms. tin (my hrmo team) for finishing the run.. i love the fact that i am not running alone anymore.. :) (although i feel that i will still run alone most of the time.. haha)...




first time runners...  finishing their first 3k.. yeyey!!
special race category... :)

then again, going back to the cause of the event, my heart celebrates that a lot of people came to join to help in the fund raising... knowing that there were a lot of generous hearts willing to help feed children to keep them in school is more than a blessing.. 
going wacky with the kids of quirino & bagong silangan elementary schools
young athletes today... olympians tomorrow.. :)
thank you Lord for generous hearts.. thank you for loving souls... 
thank you Lord for a beautiful sunday run.. :)
as i would always pray, grant in me a loving and compassionate heart so that i may do things (even in my running) that would only give glory to your name and your kingdom..:)

..and i love you so... really.. :)


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