totalECLIPSE

relocation taught me to look after myself, to look strong in spite of the loneliness that eats me up, and to hold that extra power i get by putting on all my guards. during the many low times, i saw how i tried to pull myself up and rise above each low point.. i saw myself shed tears and waited until they dry up.. i listened to the every meaning of my deep sighs... i hoped against all hopes and believed that the right time will come..

there was strength in my weaknesses.. i felt safe with my guards on... happiness was fair enough in spite of the circumstances and uncertainties..

until the lunar eclipse.. 

i walked like i was in a huge garden.. i smiled and laugh like i have forgotten every hurt and emptiness i have inside me.. i let go of my hands like it knows no fear of holding another.. my heart danced like its all brand new...

for the longest time since i came here, i felt that i was in a safe place again.. i felt that i need not worry about anything.. i just knew i was happy..

happy....all because i let all my guards down...

then the sun came up and i knew something serious just took place.. too serious that i knew i did not want to entertain at all.. too serious that i arrived at the point of regret..

all suddenly i felt that my world was starting to fall again.. i felt that fear was tearing me apart... every shield that i worked on all this time was washed away by the vulnerabilities i unknowingly welcomed.. 

suddenly, fragility was embracing me tightly.. 

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am i wrong because i threw my shield and subjected myself to more vulnerabilities?

or am i wrong because i am too scared to take chances?

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ps. this entry is not particular to the night of the lunar eclipse.. it though opened the door to reassessing myself and see how far the lost bird have reached..

apparently, it seems that the bird would prefer getting lost while having all her guards on rather than take farther flights  to target destinations but witness another broken wing along..

121211monday

emptySPACES

i don't know if it's this december air that's making me all emotional lately.  i guess the cold night has its way of enveloping me and it sends me too deep sighs and engages me to look into my deepest thoughts.  all suddenly i long more and more for my friends back home.  i know i just miss everyone so much.  i miss being around people i can really talk to.  people i can talk to about everything... from the latest tsismis up to the wonders, philosophies and awes of life.. from whimps and dorks up to the most valued people in our lives.. i also miss those times of being together even in silence..

and yes, i miss the beautiful LuNa even more..

hai..

120711wednesday

onlyCOCACOLA

my sisters introduced me to a video from youtube showing coca-cola's happiness project in celebration of its 125th year.  instantly i fell in love with the video and started watching similar videos from different countries.  as usual, i had happy tears watching the videos.  it was really fun watching people all over the world having fun and experiencing happiness in simple but genuine ways.

i love coca-cola more and more for this. here are my top three favorite coca-cola happiness videos.  you can check youtube for more.  enjoy the videos and share the happiness too.. :)

topping the list is of course coca-cola happiness truck in the Philippines..


second on the list is coca-cola happiness store.. (country not specified)


on third is coca-cola happiness machine in london..


in this season of the year and in this time when there are so many sad things going on around the world, i give praise to the minds and hearts behind this project.  it is with these types of projects i feel that there are a lot of things we can do to make others (and the world) a better place. projects, small or ambitious, will always be possible because of people who are willing to go an extra mile to share happiness.

it is also in this hope, that through this project, people will be inspired to get more involved with their communities, reach out, make a difference, and give back for the blessings received.

i love you coca-cola.


question now is, how do we also share own version of the happiness machine?


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