stainedWINGS

our laundry area is quite limitted in terms of space. because of that, we set our schedules to take turns in doing the laundry. mine is during fridays or saturday nights. 

last saturday though, i came home too tired so i decided to do my laundry the following day.  however, my sister suggested na ibabad ko na ang mga lalabhan ko.. and so, i gathered my stuff and put it sa planggana with soap and water..

after taking my lunch the next day, and while watching kiterunner,  i decided to do my laundry.. TOINKS.. holding a newly bought white blouse, i saw the hundred islands of the philippines in purple.. DAMN!! i suddenly remember my laundry 101 lesson in my home economics class.. DOUBLE DAMN!! that was a new blouse i bought last weekend, and i have only used it once.. TRIPLE DAMN! that could have been equal to 4 good meals. QUADRUPLE DAMN! while trying to scrub away the purple stain, a tiny voice in my head was whispering childishly.. didnt i tell you not to wear that purple thing.. did i not tell you it would be a bad idea to wear that purple blouse.. you silly girl.. now what?

while on my way home tonight, walking in the rain, at natapilok na naman, i cannot help but think of that purple stain.. a piece of myself continued to wonder why i forgot to separate the white blouse with the purple blouse.. it could have been a very simple laundry case..

hai.. i just thought,
sometimes, just when you start to learn to do your baby steps, or you start to trust your wings to prepare for your next big flight,
things can just change again.. twists can come like pop ups and greet you with a surprise.. or sometimes, they can come like pinches to your heart and soul..

just when you thought you are starting to bounce back,
life can give you more surprises..

and then you wonder again, you ask again..
what is the meaning of all these..
can heaven just spare me please..

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