sweetSOLITUDE

malakas na naman masyado ang ulan kanina. dala ang aking payong, at kahit naka bistida ako, sumulong ako sa ulan para makauwi na. hindi kagaya ng ibang nakapayong, ako lang ata ang hindi nagmamadali sa aking paglalakad. i was savoring my walk under the rain.. wala akong pakialam sa lakas ng ulan. weird talaga dito, kahit ang lakas ng ulan, sa kabilang dulo ng langit, masisilayan ang sinag ng papalubog ng araw. how weird could that be.. ibang klase talaga ang experiences ko sa heavenly bodies dito..

while walking, i started to feel alone again.. alone but not really very sad (i am in a different level of sadness now).. for a change, i was trying to think of the perks of being alone here.. i was trying to review some of the things i enjoyed doing while in solitude (it is in full effort that i am trying to do this, because as clearwater said.. the little one would want me to be fine and happy as well..) .. let me give you some of the things i did in my new me-world which may come handy to you too...

• aside from eating lunch alone, i walk.. and day dream..
• take opportunities of free movies at shangrila during foreign film festivals (you just have to be patient with the ticket lines)..
• watch free shows at the mall (e.g. korean singers visiting the country kahit di mo naiintindihan kanta nila)...
• once i stayed, watched, and listened to a piano playing on its own.. (the grand pianos displayed sa malls).. the music was so soothing that i wanted to stay and ask someone to dance with me.. :)
• watch that guy at toms world who dances everytime you throw in some coins..
• watch teens who never get tired doing the dance revo..
• find a corner at powerbooks and read the books you want (you can stay there the whole day, and just read)...
• run (brisk walking the past weeks.. running in the comming days).. and breathe.. since most (if not all) people running come alone, you wont be bothered running all by yourself..
• puntahan ang mga food stalls sa mrt stations na mahaba ang pila (malamang masarap ang tinda nila kaya dapat matikman mo rin - like the fried isaw)..
• listen to people singing for free courtesy of the wow magic sing..
• witness a wedding ceremony of someone you dont even know.. 
• watch cos-plays sa mega mall (ienjoy ang mga weird pero creative na mga itsura ng mga characters in their full costumes and make up - they really look so nice).. you can have photo ops as well..
• makiosyoso sa mga competitions sa mall (e.g. the first tamiya race - those little cars were really great)..
• ienjoy ang mga moments na nawawala ka sa area.. kapag nainis ka, give yourself the liberty na mag mura.. :)
• hawakan ang sariling kamay at kausapin ang sarili, tumingala sa langit at piliting ngumiti..
• magbasa at mag sulat lang ng blog kasi wala ka ngang makausap.. :)

malungkot mag isa.. pero nakakasanayan ko na.. ang totoo, nagugustuhan ko na din ito.. sa ngayon kasi, hindi ko pa rin makita sarili ko na bumubuo ng bagong mga relasyon.. tama na muna sa akin ito.. okay na ko sa lagay na to...

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