Saturday, April 30, 2011

gurungR


here's another old blog entry i wrote in hablon_dawani, my ohhh friendster blog... it was titled when love breaks, sept16.06 (a tribute to a doctor with a broken heart,  peace yow!).. :)

(from my 090506 journal entry)

may isa akong kaibigan.  at his young age, he has created his own mark in his chosen field.  kilala sya for having achieved a lot and for the passion he holds for everything that he does. to many who do not know him much, one may find him to be just another person who just want recognition.  but to a very few who know the deeper side of him, he is a friend who knew love and everything in it.


i was just thinking about him earlier today. kanina kasi, nakita ko syang umiyak. although its natural for people to cry, kanina ko lang siya nakitang umiyak sa harap ko. for a moment i really didnt know what to do.  ngayon ko lang kasi nakita ng mas malinaw yung isang bahagi pa ng pagkatao niya.  yung bahagi ng pagkatao niya with his vulnerabilities.  that part of him na mas tao siya.  and that part of him na umiiyak siya dahil nagmahal siya at minahal siya.



naiisip ko, kahit sino pala talaga pwedeng madurog kapag pinili nitong mag mahal.  kahit "doctor ka pa na obsessive compulsive" o kahit "professor ka pa na sobra kung magbigay ng assignments", ay may kahinaan din kapag nasaktan ng dahil sa pagmamahal.


marami na rin akong natutunan sa pagmamahal.  alam ko na kapag nagmahal ka, hindi guarantee na hindi ka masasaktan.  sabi sa isang pelikula, wala daw exact formula ang pag ibig.  magkaiba ang karanasan ng bawat isa.  at ang karanasan na yun ang magtuturo ng hiwaga at majika na dulot ng pag ibig.


my friend may be hurting right now.  but i know in time he will be fine.  in God’s time, all shall be well.

reposted
050111saturday

jasmineFLOWER


i wanted to save blog entries from my friendster account but i believe it will be a bad idea.. :) for one, i don't want to read them anymore.. haha (that's what you call cutting the old crap).. but here's one entry i wrote which was actually a comment on a blog posted by a Jasmine Flower (her pen name during pooh corner days)..


hello JF..


in my lowest point, the sea was also a refuge for me.. aside from my journal and my pen, the sea was a sign of better tomorrows for me…

and yah, i know that in life we have our own versions of "next please.."

but then again, we also know that all things have its own time.. its own phase…

then again… we should always be reminded, that before we desire for the "next please"… it is always best to make sure that we really fought a good fight…

"may bulong ang bawat puso… but it will take a brave heart to really listen to what it is telling us…"

im happy you are back to pooh corner…
who knows… this can be another secret place for you…
wishing you well…

mwa. :)

050111saturday
(12.26am na, month of may na pala) :)

nanayDAYS

down memory lane.. friendsterPICS (gee.. its friendster days..cgc pips, tatay fever, different hairstyles, payat si PK at BDK, bulag, pipi't bingi, and adventure galore.. ) :)

042911friday

Friday, April 29, 2011

zeroOBLIVION


dahil kung ika'y makita na
labis labis ang tuwang nadarama
magisnan lamang ang kislap ng iyong mata
kahit ano pa ay kakayanin ko na
chucks meets la coste

basta't kasama kita
lahat magagawa
lahat ay maiaalay sa'yo
basta't kasama kita
walang kailangan pa
wala nang hahanapin pa
basta't kasama kita


hai.. ganun lang talaga eh.. ganun lang kasimple.. basta nandyan ka, kahit truck kaya kong harapin. kahit nakagalitan ako ng boss ko, kaya kong ngumiti.. at kahit sobrang bumuga ng usok ang manila, bubulong pa rin ako ng pasasalamat sa langit bago ko matulog sa gabi..

:) hmmm... sorry, ganun pa rin talaga.. sorry, ganun na talaga.. you're a hard habit to break.. IKAW NA! IKAW LANG EH! 

042911friday

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

theBOSSING


the boss may be having a lot of things going on in her heart these days.. here are some of my comments in  her recent posts..
dont say youll be over him if you feel its not yet time.. hwag hayaang mahinog sa pilit. time is patient and and will always be willing to wait for you.. kaya sige lang.. dont turn your back sa mga relapse.. dont be scared with getting stranded.. and dont hesitate when you feel like taking another u-turn.. the heart may be foolish at times, pero di ito sinungaling.. hehe.. sige lang boss..

one day, youll wake up and youre really ok.. :)



on moments-of-searching-your-side-of-story
saya naman basahin nito.. ako, masaya ako kasi nagmamahal pa rin ako. walang nagbago at walang magbabago. tama, lahat gusto happy ending, pero iba iba rin ang ibig sabihin ng happy ending. meron yung kinasanayan natin sa fairytales, meron naman yung happy ending na magkahiwalay,meron din na mag isa pero masaya, at meron din na happy ending dahil sapat na sa kanya na nagmamahal siya.

ay ewan, basta ang alam ko, in love ako. basta ang alam ko, napapangiti niya ang puso ko.

ako si MYAngligaw, at ito ang kwento ko.. :)

Friday, April 22, 2011

bendedKNEES

i went inside the church light-hearted. i noticed that there was a vigil (on the sorrowful mysteries) going on. i decided to stay at the farthest end of the church, knelt down and joined in the invitation to reflect. the scourging at the pillar video started to roll. while Jesus was being scourged, i saw his eyes looking directly at me.  i looked back at Him, then not having the heart to see His pain any longer, i closed my eyes as tears started to fall like a flowing river.  at the farthest end of the church, i stayed on bended knees and cried like a scared little girl.

amidst the church full of people, i cried my heart out. 
sad tears. 
hurting tears.
hopeful tears.
trusting tears.
thankful tears.
happy tears.

hindi pa rin Kita lubusang maintindihan.  pasensya na kung minsan hindi ko pa rin maiwasan mag tanong. pasensya na rin kung hanggang ngayon mahigpit pa rin ang yakap ko sa aking mga nakagisnang ligaya. kilala mo naman ako ng lubos. alam kong alam mo na pinipilit kong  mabuhay sa bagong nakalaan sa akin. alam mo kung ano ang nasa stubborn kong puso. ano man ang plano para sa akin, susunod pa rin ako. dahan dahan lang, darating ako dyan.

salamat sa mga pagkakataon na nasaktan ako, mas natuto ako kung papaano mag mahal ng lubos at walang kapalit. salamat sa mga pagkakataon na natakot ako, mas natuto akong palayain ang aking sarili at magtiwala sa pagmamahal mo. salamat sa mga pagkakataon na nadapa ako, sa mga relapse, rewind, u-turns, stop overs, mas natuto akong tanggapin ang aking pagiging tao. mas natuto akong pahalagahan ang buhay at patawarin ng paunti-unti ang aking sarili. salamat sa bawat pag pagkakataon na makita ang araw at buwan, mas nararamdaman ko ang pagkakataon na mas maging mabuting tao para sa'yo. salamat sa mga taong patuloy na nagpapahalaga sa akin, mas naramdaman ko na maraming biyaya sa buhay ko, hindi man ako buo ngayon.

hindi ako hihingi ng lubos, hangad lang ng puso ko na panatilihin mong nasa mabuting kalagayan ang lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay. hindi ko rin hihingin ang mga nawala na sa akin, hangad ko lang na panatilihin mo silang masaya sa araw-araw. hindi na rin ako hihingi ng lubos na kaligayahan, dahil naranasan ko na iyon minsan. sapat na iyon para mag patuloy ako at maghangad ng mabuti sa iba. 

Lighting a candle by Poet for Life
keeping the fire burning
pipilitin kong mas maging mabuti para sa Iyo at sa kaharian mo. pipilitin kong maging malaya para sa pagmamahal na alay mo. at pipilitin kong mag mahal ng paulit ulit para hindi masayang ang pagligtas mo sa aking kaluluwa.

maraming salamat sa pagmamahal na patuloy na inaalay mo sa akin. 


042211friday

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

timezoneROCKS

because gnomeo and juliet being 3D was so expensive, we opted to do timezone.. FAIR DEAL! because all is fair in HAVING FUN!! 

PK and babyDynelle playing sleep time with magic.











up up up and away with tinker bell and the powerpuffgirls! (sorry baby, you don't have vcd at home so we can't buy this) hehehe.. 











merry-oh-go-round ride! (not the purple horse please!)











sige baby, play as if its working.. yeyeyey!











i so love this game.. and the music too! :)














PK with mommy dotie... rockstars wannabee..











what's on your mind MYA? :)











first time to play this.. this arrow down pad isn't working.. i kept receiving a BOO comment.. damn!!











see that form and ball?? got to have a good score to add on to Baby's points.. shoot that ball!











too bad/sad that BabyDylan isn't with us now? :(











givng RIO a BigHUG :)











truth is, timezone time is always for BabyDynelle and Baby Dylan, but double truth is, i think the baby sitters wants this time as much as they do.. hehe.. :)

check out more pics at http://plixi.com/p/94190290.

042011wednesday
(see, its a happy wednesday)

ps. 

here's my new favorite, plato wrap's chunky chicken, tekkiyakiudon's garlic chicken, ice cold mountain dew, and silver chopsticks.. the best food to eat when you just lost a loaded timezone powercard!!


Tuesday, April 19, 2011

happyTIUSDAY

 the best things in life are free.. :) i can sleep in cloud nine tonight.. simple joys are truly the best ever!

 Christopher Tiu 
@ 
@ Ganun ba? This is the only reason why I'm still considering playing in the pros. Thank you!
 nikki valenciano 
@ 
@ i hope to see you one day play with your pba idols too.. it will be a dream come true for me.. really.. :)




041911tiusday

kindHEARTS

cried myself to sleep last night because of so much fear on what may happen to me this day. an addition to those fears were loneliness striking big time again.. hai, shit really happens big time huh...

i brought to dreamland with me the positive words of little angels back home, plus those of my sisters and friends here. i whispered-shout my prayers last night, begging for kind hearts to rule today.. surprisingly, after realizing i woke up this morning, i saw myself frowning for waking up (sorry God, not that i don't want to wake up anymore, you know i was just really scared this morning).

at lunch today i received a text which says 

manila moon at st. francis st.
don't be totally heavily worried about everything going wrong around you, that's my job.
- God-

i don't usually read forwarded messages, but i was glad i read the message this time.

to make the day's story short, my immediate bosses were so supportive of me and "as usual" got my back for the lapse i have done again. and for my big boss, she smiled at me after learning what i did wrong again.

i was really surprised by her reaction, no hurting words came out; no reprimand. just a smile and a joke.
after the encounter, i went to the lady's room and cried happy and grateful tears. i was crying hard because i was so happy and thankful to God.

kind hearts ruled today. compassion poured like rain too. 
it is another humbling experience for me. it is another showcase of His love for me.

if i may put it,

magsisimula pa lang nga ang passion ni Jesus, nasa resurrection na ako agad.

see how God's love work? 
with this i bring to prayer that i get to know Him more each day, and that i become a better person for His greater glory. teach me to love without conditions Lord God, and that i find peace in loving just because. 

power and magic combined :)


thank you God for beautiful souls around me.
thank you, really. :)

041911tuesday
(in full humility and gratefulness)

Monday, April 18, 2011

loudestSOUND

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na sobra kang takot and you just want to run so fast to go to your safest place? yung pakiramdam na sobrang unfair ng mundo and that everything is a mess, and things are not falling into place even if you've been trying so damn hard?

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam ng umiiyak ng halos labing apat na buwan? yung pakiramdam na nagbibilang ka ng bawat araw na dumadaan at nag hihintay sa nag iisang araw na pinakaaasam?

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na gustong gusto mong tumakbo papunta sa kanya at mag sumbong sa sobrang pangit ng araw mo? yung gusto mo lang syang makatabi kahit wala syang sasabihin na kahit na ano basta nandyan lang sya?

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na isigaw sa langit ang lahat ng nilalaman ng puso at isip mo?
naririnig mo ba ako? nandyan ka pa ba?

--------------------------

yesterday marked the start of the holy week. bigla kong naiisip kanina, can all these things happening to me right now be my way of joining Jesus in his passion and death? kakarampot man ito sa ginawa niya para sa akin pero lahat ng ito'y iaaalay ko pa rin. kakarampot man, totoong nasasaktan pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.

with humble heart, and in full humility, i come and beg before my God to grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.


041811monday (on monday blues)
deep in the night, its an endless fight
should learn to live with it




Friday, April 15, 2011

tripleSURPRISE

from fineCHINA with love :)
big thanks for the big big surprises.
i only asked for 2 pieces of ibus and you gave me 6.
i only asked for biggs classic cheeseburger and you gave me this MYAsrandomslate.


thank you from the core of my heart.

ps. thank you din sa converse shoes na notepad.. although, mas okay syempre kung totoong shoes na lang.. next time. next time.


041511friday



Thursday, April 14, 2011

magnificentSAGADA

summertime.. i have always loved this time of the year. it is the time that marks another adventure with via yang. since we love the Philippines so much, we want to make sure that we reach our dream destinations mula batanes hanggang jolo.. and for this summer special, we have the taraNAsaSAGADAtour..

we decided to have things arranged by availing of a tour package courtesy of gafaTOURS (check out their site for great deals and adventure).  we believe that it will make things a lot better for us, worry and stress free. we were aboard two nissan urvan escapades. we were set to leave manila around 9 pm. together with us in the car were two sets of girls. one is set to travel for the purpose of soul searching, while the other set was to have a good break. because of too much excitement, i realized i failed to bring any pants. that only meant i'll be wearing shorts (in a freezing place) during the entire tour. good luck Mya. :)

sagada is located in the mountains of northern philippines.  being mountainous in terms of location calls for roads that are passable but may be rough as well.  travel time almost took us eleven hours because of the many stop overs we had to make (someone from our group would throw up every kilometer). i must admit that i got pissed off by this. later though i started to pity her after realizing that her intestines may come out as well if the difficulty further continues.. oopps, sorry girl. :)

because of the delay, we were not able to make it to see the sunrise.  good thing though that the morning was foggy and that only meant no signs of the sun during that morning. yes yes, heaven was on our side. :) we had our first breakfast at this very cute house cum restaurant called salt and pepper..  we had fried rice, longganisa, scrambled egg and hot chocolate.  i also had with me my ibus straight from naga courtesy of Fine China.

we had to freshen up quick for our first stop for the tour, Ganduyan Museum.  the museum was actually put up and run by a native igorot woman.  the museum exhibits the rich culture of igorots . the fluency in english when she spoke of their culture was truly amazing. i loved the woven clothes best, very intricate designs created by amazing Filipino hands.

a tour couldn't go without a church visit, St. Mary's Episcopal Church.  sagada is considered to be the town in the Philippines that is predominantly protestant. the church, just like the villagers, communicated the warmth and simplicity of the life in sagada.

following the outside of the church is the way towards the echo valley which also leads the way to the famous hanging coffins. i had the chance to meet two local boys who joined me in this picture, abril and james.  any nature lover would not second hand this trail because of the trees, flowers, and cold-soothing breeze.  at the far end of the trail is the view of the hanging coffins.  locals believe that the closer you are to the sky, the nearer you are to the heavens.  it is also said the only pure igorots are allowed to avail of this.

Lumiang Burial Cave houses coffins during the old times.  our tour guide mentioned that only pure igorots were allowed to be buried there. single women and women who died because of giving birth were buried in a different cave. old beliefs hold that these women are considered unworthy for not being able to live up with their purpose of being women. i saw myself pouting as i heard our guide mentioned these words. so, am i not worthy huh?.. :)

interconnecting with the lumiang cave is the Sumaguing Cave. tourists have the option to go for cave connection or spelunking. the red flag is up so i decided to go for the latter. good thing that the rest of the group chose it too. the spelunking experience was undeniable great.  it is (thus far) the most amazing cave i have ever seen.  the size itself was enough to mesmerize me.  i even heard myself saying the word amazing several times.  one is advised to bring with him/her rubber gloves because of the bat poopoos.. syempre, wala ako nun. so i had bat poo all over my hand all throughout the tour.  haha.. (very me).. good hand and foot grips would really mean extra help in this experience.  my entire body ached but rejoiced when i saw the light outside the cave. (now i realized why souvenir shirts in sagada spoke of survival experience).. 

a tiring day should merit a hearty dinner.  we were served with sinigang na baboy. yummy to the bones. :) i had to freshen up fast because the cold temperature and my swelling body were pulling me to sleep. i guess i was really too borlog that even the snoring going on around me put me to lullaby land (hehe, peace trip buddies).

i was too cold to take my bath in the morning.  not even a shower with a heater was enough to bring me to take a bath.  haha.. we hurried up to make it to Kiltepan viewpoint for sunrise viewing.  the morning was freezing cold but all these disappeared when i saw the majestic sun dancing with the cotton-candy-like clouds. it was like im-on-the-top-of-the-world feeling. the view was more than fascinating, my deep sighs were grateful sighs for God's immense gifts.  hai.. :)

we had our breakfast, daing na bangus, banana and hot chocolate.  we got ready for the hike to Bomod-ok falls. the hike to the falls took about 2.5km. the trail allowed us to trek the rice terraces.  AHHHHHHMazing grace.. the heat of the sun was on its peak, but i can let go of that difficulty so easily because of the wonders i was witnessing.  our tour guide, kuya jeffrey, shared that the paths were done through bayanihan of the locals.  once again, the character of Filipinos on working together heightened my spirit.

the Bomod-ok falls was a beauty in itself, but i must say that Malabsay and Itbog falls of my native CamSur still top my list. 

we had packed lunch (mixed vegetable and pork with lemon sauce) by the falls. most of my companions went for a dip in the water. it was also a good start for chit-chats with new friends. :)

the way back was extra challenge for me.  the 
uphill trek was kinda killing my left knee so making it to the top was like reaching the finish line from an 80km foot race.  hahaha..

by the way, most of the houses in sagada are made of galva steel.  our guide mentioned that back then, cement was not yet too popular that is why they made use of steel instead.  
we dropped off  at  sagada weaving. unfortunately, (being a sunday) the weavers were on day off. we then spent the rest of the afternoon through sourvenir hunting.

we made sure to visit the famous lemon pie house. to make sure we get to taste the pies , we each had a different pie ordered (lemon, blueberry, and egg).  good thinking huh? well, after getting a taste of all the pies, i realized that they are best eaten together. a little bit of everything created balance in the taste of the palette. hindi ako matakaw, marunong lang mag appreciate ng food..  

for dinner we had sinampalukang manok.  2 of my trip buddies and i ordered and shared together a banana yogurt with roasted granola at the famous yogurt house.  i am not a fan of yogurts (except nestle fruit yogurt - melon flavor), but i  was the one who finished it up.  if you are not a yogurt fan, make sure you will have someone to share your order with.

for our last night, we had a simple graduation-rite as sagada survivors.  i am really proud of myself for surviving this trip.  we also culminated the tour with a simple jamming session prepared by the other group. their combined personalities made the night and the entire trip really fun. i found them to be a bunch of individuals who are testaments to living life to the fullest; sweet souls who know how to have fun and finds it cool to look out for each other and free spirits who are willing to embrace the adventures of life.  watching them goof around reminded me of adnu's hundred-acre-woods. 

early monday morning temperature was absolutely cold.  but i tried to savor the sweetness of the cold air as we were about to leave the town.  i let go of deep sighs thinking that i will be ending the day faced with busy roads, honking vehicles, and starless nights again. (i can only sigh)..

one last look at heavenlySAGADA while having our stop over to have breakfast on the road to Baguio.. 

leaving mt. province (but the picture says otherwise.. toinks).. 

i can't let the trip end without having a picture with our safe keepers (kuya jon, kuya ferdie, and kuya ed).



ending my sagadaADVENTURE brought me to whisper my gratitude to God for the wonders He has given us.  i can live my life just witnessing all these creations. lucky Me. :)


excerpt from my bucketLIST..

207. storrytelling with kids
208. be really happy
209.join a poetry reading
210. sagada adventure trip
211. ice skate like  an ice princess




sagada is a trip of a lifetime. i survived Sagada. and i am proud to be Pinoy.  go wowPilipinas. 
view more pics of MyangLigaw on the road http://plixi.com/p/92996471.




for great,affordable and fun adventures.. check out http://www.gafatours.com/index.html.


 041411wednesday