Monday, April 18, 2011

loudestSOUND

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na sobra kang takot and you just want to run so fast to go to your safest place? yung pakiramdam na sobrang unfair ng mundo and that everything is a mess, and things are not falling into place even if you've been trying so damn hard?

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam ng umiiyak ng halos labing apat na buwan? yung pakiramdam na nagbibilang ka ng bawat araw na dumadaan at nag hihintay sa nag iisang araw na pinakaaasam?

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na gustong gusto mong tumakbo papunta sa kanya at mag sumbong sa sobrang pangit ng araw mo? yung gusto mo lang syang makatabi kahit wala syang sasabihin na kahit na ano basta nandyan lang sya?

alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na isigaw sa langit ang lahat ng nilalaman ng puso at isip mo?
naririnig mo ba ako? nandyan ka pa ba?

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yesterday marked the start of the holy week. bigla kong naiisip kanina, can all these things happening to me right now be my way of joining Jesus in his passion and death? kakarampot man ito sa ginawa niya para sa akin pero lahat ng ito'y iaaalay ko pa rin. kakarampot man, totoong nasasaktan pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.

with humble heart, and in full humility, i come and beg before my God to grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.


041811monday (on monday blues)
deep in the night, its an endless fight
should learn to live with it




4 comments:

  1. I wish you love ate nikki.. Hope that in every trial you face I know someone will be there to be with you, fight with you kahit anu pa mangyari. I wish you love:)...

    i come and beg before my God to grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference. nakakagaan ng pakiramadam..

    Full of hope ate:).. I really salute you..

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  2. @addicted2love..
    thank you..
    3 things i learned about hope.
    one. its the one thing that holds you with the future.two. don't leave regrets in your heart, only hope. three. hold on to those that give you meaning, hope.

    and all these, i learned because i encountered pain.

    aja!

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  3. 3 things maya learned about hope:

    its the one thing that holds you with the future.
    don't leave regrets in your heart, only hope.
    hold on to those that give you meaning, hope.

    hope you had a nice holy week maya and ms tonee :))) more hugs for the both of you

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  4. thanks boss.. yap yap.. it was fruitful and im looking forward to my retreat too.. :)

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