Wednesday, November 30, 2011


there was a point in my life when i got so fond of poetry.  although there were a lot of times when i found it hard to decipher their meanings, just reading them created great stirrings in my heart. i even longed for opportunities to join poetry readings.  fortunately, i was given the chance to participate in a poetry reading (january 2010) through the adnu campus ministry. that also meant getting another check on my bucket list.

just today, i again had the urge to look over google and read (again) some of my favorite poems.  here's one poet i really admire and a poem which is one of my favorites. read on (and read it with a lot of heart).. because it's after all, a wednesday :)

i carry your heart with me
e.e cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my baby) 
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

113011because its wednesday

Monday, November 28, 2011

Saturday, November 26, 2011


Seth came to manila last sunday from his cdo trip.. of course, having him around also meant watching pba especially that it's his team (bmeg) playing.. bmeg played against ginkings.. and although Pilosopong Komikero and i are not really ginking fans, we cheered our hearts out for the team just so we can also go against Seth (friends you call huh? haha)

i was also excited to see two of my favorite players.. #14 ren ritualo (shopinas) and #14 enrico villanueva (ginkings).. God, it was a #14 sunday...

it was a good game.. i bet Seth got nervous that his team's gonna end up losing again.. good thing heaven was on their side that night.. and although i was so tired and sleepy because of the pasig run i had during the morning, every second was worth spending with these two freaks..

it was indeed a great sunday... im so happy to see you again @Seth.. and i am sure Pilosopong Komikero is happier too.. :)

happy birthday! ily.


Monday, November 21, 2011


after nearly 3 weeks of no running (got really sick for a week), i decided to push through with the run for pasig. although i was not psyched up with the activity, i thought that it was a good idea to continue with it. besides, it also meant running with another new set of friends.

going to the start up line was really difficult.  we got caught in traffic and we needed to walk for almost 2km to reach the starting line.  i got really pissed off.  i even had thoughts of not participating anymore.  i just felt that it wasn't too organized.

it was almost gunstart when we reached the mark.  there was so much people and it was too crowded.  i guess i did not expect such a crowd (ang toinks ko talaga!). i was quite fixed on the thought that i'll just be walking throughout the duration.  my only consolation was seeing that my friends were excited about it and are eager to finish it as fast as they can.

i ran the course when i felt like running.  i was not too in a hurry to finish it.  i even had the luxury to watch performances of bands on the sides of the streets, and also bought myself twin pops.  i also had times to check on the faces of the ms earth candidates who were swooned in by runners for photo ops. there was just too much going on around.

it was actually my longest 5k run.  it took me 1.10hrs to finish (ooohhh, that's bad!).  but then again, i still had fun after seeing my friends happy with their accomplishment. most were having their first experience in long distance running.  with that, i cannot be more happy knowing that i am meeting more people who are into running.  that in itself is putting smiles on my face.

the run for pasig hopes to help in the restoration of the pasig river (well, hopefully the run did not only mean beating the world record for having the highest number of participants). i still hope that every penny out would really benefit the river, the people, and entire community.  i believe after all that more people working, means many chances of living better.

two more i have to add... i fulfilled my dream of running along roxas blvd.. and of course, my manilaMoon was around to run with me again.


Friday, November 18, 2011


the happiness in giving never fails to put smiles in the hearts of those who always desire to give.. it is in this line that i am posting a link in support of a project that aims to help athletes from negros oriental. 
read more about the project by clicking the link  

i am sure that no help is too small to support this project.  
and i am sure no heart is too wounded to not share love to others.


Monday, November 14, 2011


its been almost 6 months now since i started to long for a copy of the books.  it was not because they were out of stock that kept me from having a copy of it.  i just did not have it on my budget the past months.  and then finally, it was reading zone again..

i must say that the hunger games series by suzanne collins is remarkably violent, wickedly crazy, but with lots of humor and heart/love too.  i specially love the first two books hunger games and catching fire.  i also have to admit that i was a bit disappointed with the third book mockingjay.  probably because i found the third book a bit slow in its pacing and the plot was not too exciting.  or maybe, i was also expecting too much from the last book. either way, next to tuesdays with morie, there is still no other book that brought out too much tears from me.  the series hold a different kind of magic that im sure readers would love.  over all, it gives you a different kind of thrill and adventure, at the same time reminding us that love and hope (like dandelions promising many summer times) always work in the end.  



my sister asked me about my favorite character, and right away i told her its peeta mellark.  i guess i won't be a singled-out fan.  peeta's character is so much lovable in the book (although i am also a finnick fan and gale is gale, and katniss is the mockingjay).  but over and above anything else, it's with the way katniss always saw peeta's eyes. i guess, it's the feeling of peace i always felt everytime katniss would talk about his eyes.  it also had a way of just making me smile.

without a miss.

may the odds be ever in your favor

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


have you been caught in a conversation with kids and you suddenly find yourself dumbfounded because you don't know how to respond to their questions? it's really cute, but at the same time, you'll find yourself worrying in the end.. worrying if you got the right message across.. haha.. here's two recent examples:

tita nikki, how long is one minute? 
it's like counting 1 to 60.
so, is that long or short?
let me see, it can be both. it can be short for kids like you who are tooooo excited to play na. and it can also be loooong like forever for a person who wants a hug from a friend she misses.
so, it is long and short?
(laughing).. sige ganito na lang... let's count 1 to 60 together... then you tell me if it's long or short.. ok?
go.. 1 2 3 ...... 60.. so, is it long or short?
i don't know, i think it can be both..

tita nikki, my classmate told me that promises are meant to be broken. so she said we should not make promises anymore.  is that true?
ahh.. can you get me a glass of water baby..i'll answer you when you come back.. (watda!)..
here tita.. so tita, we should not make promises anymore?
ganito kasi yun.. promises should be kept true to your heart.. a promise is a promise.. we try our very best to keep our promises. but, there are times when things change.  and because some things change, some promises are broken.
but that's sad. i don't get it.
yes it is. but you see, people who break their promises don't really do them on purpose. some things just really change. put this in mind, we make promises because we mean it. we try our best and we keep those promises. if a promise is broken, we will just hope that it's for the better.
can you give me an example.
(geez.. nosebleed... bar exam).. wait baby ah.. tita will think of an example.. (after nearly 5 mins)... ok, here's an example.. there was a time when your daddy promised you that you can play outside with your friends kasi ginawa mo assignment mo.. pero di ba it rained that afternoon.. tapos your friends were playing in the rain while you were asked to stay inside.. you cried so hard because you also wanted to play.. parang ganun, daddy promised but did not keep his promise kasi kung pinayagan ka nyang maglaro sa ulan, baka nagkasakit ka. parang ganun. did you get my example?
ah, yes tita. i understand now.

i remember a show before called kids say the darnest things.. i cannot help but think of that show as i was trying to come up with the answers to her questions.  ohh, hopefully i made sense..

on the other hand, i also started to think after..
how long is one minute? and, are promises really made to be broken?

now, you tell me.. 



just when i thought 2011 will come to end without having to spend time with two of my favorite persons on earth, finally, it's one wish down from my bucketlist.

whether one sees this as big deal or not, for me, this is simply happiness to the core.
whether its just for a short while or a whole day, this can be my 366 days.
and whether he's back or not, this still means the whole world to me.

para kay lei,
thank you for the patience. because just when nearly everyone thought i better give up; and just when nearly everyone thought my hair would turn out to be like rapunzel's, you stuck around with me. patiently believing and also waiting for that day that we, three, would be together again to attend mass and eat (just like the old times).  thank you, because i know, that you being happy to see us all together, is happier to see that i am complete again.

para kay RuSs,
big deal or not, thank you from the bottom of my heart. heaven knows its one prayer answered. and for that i will always be thankful.  i know that some things may not be the same anymore, but for the most part, my friendship will always remain.

i am glad i waited.
i am happy i hoped.
and i am grateful because i am truly blessed.

thank you heaven.
(i'll always be, the lucky one)