Wednesday, September 8, 2010

unfairDAYS

completing requirements...
mya: good morning ms. d.. this is mya.. may i know the schedule of my acess test?
ms. d: hello ms. mya.. mmm, let me check.. its on september 14..
mya: oh.. can i have another date please?..
ms. d: no cant do.. no other schedule available.. september 14, 8.00-5.00..
mya: ok.. (deep sigh) thank you...

riding a jeep going home..
jeep stereo playing first song..
and i gave up forever to touch you..
when everythings made to be broken..
i just want you to know who i am..
second song...
coz i love her with all that i am

and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she's all that I see and she's all that I need
and i'm out of my league once again

lunch time..
ms. m: mya, may ice cream tayo dun..
mya: ahh.. ok po..
 

mr. t: oi mya may ice cream dito..
mya: ahh.. ok po..
 
supertwin1: ms. mya ice cream daw ubusin natin..
mya.. ahh.. mmm...
 
ms. m: oi ano, kain ka dun ice cream..
mya: ahh.. hindi po ako kumakain ice cream..
ms. m: ha, bakit? seryoso ka?
mya: ahh.. mmm..
 
bus ride going home..
batman: mya, iyan ang philippine heart center.. dyan ka mapupunta kapag di mo inalagaan sarili ko..
mya: ah talaga.. so pwede na pala ako pumunta dyan..
batman: (acting surprised).. ha, bakit naman..
mya: i would love a heart transplat..
batman: ha.. anong heart transplant?..
mya: i would want a brand new heart.. literally.. and figuratively.. (bigsigh).. yah.. a new heart..
 
5:00pm..
supertwin1: oi ms. mya, last day ko bukas kaya sama ka starbucks..
mya: ha?... eh alam mo naman di ako nag co-cofee...
supertwin1: bakit ba ayaw mo cofee?
mya: ah.. allergic ako..
supertwin1: ha, ngayon lang ako nakarinig ng allergy sa coffee..
mya: mmm...
 
supertwin1:anong ginawa mo nung sunday?
mya: tulog, simba, nakinig piano sa mall, tumakbo..
supertwin1: san ka ba tumatakbo?
mya: sa ultra kasi malapit lang samin..
supertwin1: eh bat ka pa tatakbo, eh ang payat mo naman..
mya: its good for my heart.. literally and figuratively again..
 
way out to institutions gate..
batman: bat di ka kumain nung palabok, ang sarap pa naman nun..
mya: may allergy ako..
batman: sa palabok? weird, ngayon lang ako nakarinig noon..
mya: oo meron nun..
batman: anong mangyayari kapag kumain ka?
mya: mag swell ang puso ko..
batman: ha?
mya: basta...

need i say more?
need i ask why unfair days exist?
need i have deeper sighs again and again?

its not ok.
im not ok.

but im running..
of
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7 comments:

  1. AnonymousSeptember 9, 2010 at 12:33 PM

    Ano bang meron sa mga allergies?

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  2. via yangSeptember 9, 2010 at 3:15 PM

    allergies ka ba talaga sa mga pagkain o baka naman sa mga tao na naaalala mo sa mga pagkain?

    anyway, pag nag aya ako sa starbucks 'wag mo sabihin na may allergy ka at naku that will really break my heart...

    sige lang lilipas din ang mga unfair days...
    hang on and continue running--you're getting there!

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  3. Ako Si NikkiSeptember 10, 2010 at 4:37 PM

    @anonymous..
    allergy - (n) an unusual sensitiveness of the body which causes certain people to be affected in a bad way by something usually harmless.

    allergic - (adj) affected in a bad way by (certain) things.

    ano bang meron dun?
    truth..
    reality..
    anger..
    memories..
    pain..

    @via yang..
    in a visit sa powerbooks, i cam across two lines sa isang libro. sabi nya..

    everything is connected.
    everything is one.

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  4. shexplanationSeptember 11, 2010 at 9:14 AM

    @yellowcab: oo nga, san ba talaga may allergic? sa mga pagkain o sa mga taong nagpapaalala? pero ok lang yan ate. marami talagang unfair days. di natin maiiwasan yan eh. but, it doesn't mean na palagi na lang unfair days.

    @via yang:ako, hindi allergic sa kape. hehehe

    @anonymous: do i know you personally?

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  5. JRoSeptember 11, 2010 at 9:24 PM

    Yellowcab, di ko alam kun bakit, pero nalulungkot ako nung binabasa ko blog mo, allergies? dapat talagang iwasan... nakakamatay yun pag sobra. iwasan ang mga bagay, bigyan ng dahilan/rason ang mg bagay? tumakbo?
    hay naku..
    pusong pagod...
    the mind cannot always tell what the heart wants to say.

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  6. penelope strohemSeptember 14, 2010 at 6:06 PM

    alam mo bang sabi ng iba, hindi nakakatulong ang pag-iwas sa mga allergies? kasi daw para masugpo ito, kailangan i-expose ang sarili sa mga ito upang masanay ang katawan dito. allergic ako noon sa alikabok, pero paano ko naman maiiwasan ang alikabok? kaya ayun, panay pa rin ang linis ko sa aking kapaligiran kahit ang resulta nito ay runny nose at trankaso kung minsan. tinatakpan ko lang ang ilong po para hindi masobrahan. ;)

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  7. Ako Si NikkiSeptember 14, 2010 at 10:22 PM

    @urban miss..
    i am teary eyed reading your comment.. nabanggit sakin ni Seth noon na the best way to conquer my fear and my pain is to embrace them.. hwag iwasan at talikuran..

    siguro nga iyon ang dapat.. pero hindi ko talaga kaya.. heaven knows i am trying..

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