silentMOON

may nagtanong sa akin kung bakit daw hanggang ngayon hindi pa ako nag kaka boyfriend uli; kung bakit daw ayaw kong mag meet up with  other people; kung bakit hindi ako open for dates (blind date man o hindi); kasunod ng mga tanong na yun ang isa pang madalas na tanong.. kung takot ba akong masaktan uli..

ang totoo, hindi naman talaga ako bitter sa buhay at lalong hindi rin ako takot na masaktan ULI (addict?).. ang totoo pa, naniniwala pa rin ako sa tunay na pag ibig; buo pa rin ang pagtingin ko na may taglay itong majika sa puso at kaluluwa natin; kinikilig pa rin ako sa ideya ng prince charming; at lalong napapabuntong hininga akong masaya sa katotohanang dala pa rin ng ever afters.. 


ang kaso,

pakiramdam ko na hindi ito nauukit sa palad ko. nararamdaman ko na hindi iyon bahagi ng magiging kabuuang kwento ng buhay ko; iba ata ang nakalaang ever after para sa akin; http://bagonglangit.blogspot.com/2010/07/theexception.html

hindi man ako maintindihan ng mga tao ngayon, uli, hindi ko problema iyon. maniwala kayo o hindi, masaya ako kahit hindi perpekto at buo ang buhay ko. maraming dahilan para maging masaya ako. kung magiging mas masaya pa ako, bonus na lang iyon. sa ngayon, sapat na yung nararamdaman kong katahimikan at kaligayahan na dulot ng bawat araw; sapat na rin para makatulog akong mahimbing sa bawat gabi.

living by the sun, 

loving by the moon.

033111thursday

inBETWEENS

ei t jules, here's my message na lang for the graduates.. request ko sana si ate bitat ang mag basa ta long time moderator (syemps).. starting up ----------- from manila with love (gee i dont know how to start).. sige, syempre congratulations to the graduates. hindi ko man kayo nakitang umakyat sa stage ng gym (hehe), heaven knows i celebrated with you last saturday. i was even teary eyed when i learned na sa gym yung venue ninyo, was thinking of all the parents na hindi nakapasok.. :( first day high! anyway, as you start another phase ng buhay ninyo, dont forget to look back sa mga pinagdaanan ninyo.. dont also forget to remember the people na nakilala ninyo who have contributed to the person you are now. baunin ninyo yung happy memories ng collge and ng lungga.. choose also from the not-so-good experiences na pwede din ninyong hugutan ng lakas everytime "shit happens" (oopss, sorry t elaine for the word).. i am sure you will all do good sa mga susunod ninyong gagawin. anuman ang road na tatahakin, keep your feet on the ground and always hold on to your values and those that give meaning to you.. basta, know that i am truly proud of all of you..especial mention kina bossing she, brentwood, and lil jan.. syempre, sa mga anak ko, anjz, vhanny, bryann, bles and long.. (see long, natapos natin.. told you so... sabi ko sayo, you cant stop because we can find ways.. and we did.., really really happy...) having fun :) sa mga matitirang pcsv.. sabi ninyo, mas magaling kayo sa batch nila marshee and bossing.. sabi ko naman, opinyon ninyo yan.. hehe.. maaring tama, maaaring tama talaga.. hehe. alam kong may kanya kanya kayong galing.. hindi kailangan tapatan, at lalong hindi kailang lampasan.. ang mahalaga, you do your best ALWAYS sa pinili ninyong serbisyo.. if you fail, the gcs would always understand (ewan ko lang kay kuya ruffy, hehe)... basta, make your own mark sa lungga.. i know you are doing well, ive always believed in you.. really. 2nd day push push push sa mga bagong batch ng sv.. hello!! swerte ninyo di ninyo na ko inaabutan.. :) the cgc family is like your typical family..may mabait, may masungit, may antipatiko, may sobrang antipatiko, may mayabang, may feeling masyado, pero lahat lovable kahit ganun..  its not at all perfect,but if you allow yourself to be embraced by it and you allow yourself to embrace it too, mas maiintindihan ninyo kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng blessings from heaven.. youll get to appreciate friendship, acceptance and love all in one.. promise!! sa mga gcs, patuloy na mahalin ang mga bata.. you know they are blessings to us.. at hanapan ninyo na si kuya ruffy lovelife para good mood parati..  sa mga graduates uli,  no goodbyes, only see you later.. goodluck and congratulations again.  i really miss everyone so bad.. really really.. pasensya na sa something namin ni marshee.. after work lang kasi kami nakagawa.. thanks sa foodcourt ng gateway.. 2 days yan ah.. sige sige, hugs to everyone..  ps. HOY CHUBS! PATI BA NAMAN IKAW DI NA RIN AKO KAKAUSAPIN??? haist.. ps. hello RuSs. :) eat pray love run and love some more, And Life is a road and I want to keep going Love is a river I want to keep flowing Life is a road now and forever A Wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there whenthe storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you -at the beginning, anastacia ost-

032911tuesday

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sofunnyPATANI

i read about him (Mikey Bustos) on the sunday newspaper a while ago. he's a filipino-canadian who sings (gosh he sings so well, love his cove of unchained melody and straight from the heart) and and write songs, an actor and a co-founder of an online store (http://www.mikeybustos.ca/antscanada.asp) that caters to ant enthusiasts on all parts of the world.  but the point of the article was his creation of this phenomenon on youtube for his filipino tutorial video series. i got so interested that i immediately checked out his videos. on this sleepy and lazy sunday, i found myself laughing out so loud while watching. it also amazed me again how Filipinos can be so creatively witty and funny at the same time.

try checking out his videos.  i am sure you'll like them too (unless, ang babaw ko na naman lang talaga). here's a sample of his works. enjoy chickenjoy!





032711sunday

simpleJOYS

@SweetyPhen @triciakylzamora @ambixitioxa @PatYHusband @MYAngligaw @corsche19 @dssanroque Astig! Sana naponood ko rin! Taping pa rin kami ;p
-Marc Abaya Fri 25 Mar 22:16 via twitter for Blackberry-


@charmz_1998 @iHeart_rhapsody @superkrysthia @MYAngligaw @kaye082 Astig! I am very happy na natuwa kayo ;p Cheers
-Marc Abaya Sat 26 Mar 20:59 via twitter for Blackberry-


the best things in life are free :)


032711sunday

number9574

i ran my third marathon for this month. it wasn't actually a planned run. a friend invited me last night to join a run for his group, Gawad Kalinga. since it meant another opportunity to run, i obviously said yes. plus, it also meant running with new companions, Ion Man and my sister Honey Bee. i also said yes because proceeds will be for Gawad Kalinga, Habitat for Humanity, Haribon Foundation, and Verlanie Foundation.  running for this cause gives me the feeling that i am contributing to every person's dream of having their own homes, of knowing how it feels to be truly home. it makes me feel blessed, and makes me want to do more. :)


i knew i am not psyched up to run the 10k so i joined in the 5k category. it was a good run even if i felt too sleepy. i saw a lot of stars too. it was also the first marathon where i got a lot of freebies. there were hydration drinks, sunday newspaper, sports magazines (oh, i got 4), oats bar, pain relievers, tumbler from igma news tv (i requested for a green one), and a lot more.

on the downside, i didn't have a camera with me. and it only meant one thing, no pictures with coach Rio de la Cruz.. oh i was nearly to tears when i saw him a lot of times walking in front of me.. talk about bad luck huh?.. i guess the "adjustment bureau" is working so hard for us not to cross paths huh? haist.. oh well, i can still dream of that one day i'll get a picture with him.. be waiting then ..

on a happy note again, after not seeing my Manila Moon for a couple of days, aba! he was present the entire run. hmmm, looking down for me huh?... so so glad to see you again! really..: )


in my simple way, i knew i helped build a dream today.
what do you build?


032711sunday

proudNANAY

we heard.

Pilosopong Komikero and i were so happy to learn about the news.
i am really so proud of all of you.
hindi man ako makarating sa graduation day, please know that i celebrate your achievements too.
im sorry i can't join you in your big day. nonetheless, i am sure it will be fun.

super happy for all you you. :)

congratulations PCSV batch 2011 graduates.

032211tuesday

happyZONE

i promised little dylan and little dynnelle for a weekend sleep over.. here's a fulfillment of the promise made..

buying dinner at joseph bitangcol's bbq haus.. i love the isaw sooo much.. no isaw for kids of course.. :)

no cheese curls little dynnelle.. let the tantrums begin!! 

photography sessions with tita nickelodeon.. baby dynnelle plays sad.. :(

i taught her to do that.. hehe.. mommy doesn't like it.. hehe..

with mommy dottie.. i slept in this tent hugging a huge bear..



pillow fight with dylan.. since i am older, i deserve a big pillow as well.. :) haha...




thumb wrestling.. (i promised myself i'll only play this game with Pilosopong Tasyo..).. guess i broke a promise here huh?.. oh well, i'm sure he wouldn't mind.. :)

playing with Rice Queen..

playing with puppets..






hai.. so cute.. :)


truth is..
people won't need vitamins if they are surrounded by kids..
i miss them already.. :(


032111monday

noREGRETS

here's something i carried with me after the race.. let me read it to you.. life is a marathon, not a sprint.  so don't rush things.. because anything worth having, is worth waiting for.. :) 

onlyHOPE..

032011sunday

number1080

ready for take off

for hope

Dancing Queen treated me and my officemates to a free registration on the run for the cardinal santos' pediatric ward of cancer patients.  too bad Ms. Roxy was not able to join us. but it was still fun joining this event in the company of new friends.

supperMOON

i sighed (happy sigh) as i was greeted by my Manila Moon (on its super state) just before the race started. beautiful luna, you never fail to make me smile. :)

still breathing huh? :)

its my first 10k run and was also my first to be in Mckinley Hills. God, i thought i would die along the race. haha. i actually met my target time in the 5k mark.  unfortunately, i got slower with the second half. i can remember stopping in all the water stations.  my head was feeling so hot that i even poured water on it several times.  i also finished a whole cadburry bar on my way. uphill running was like deadly for my legs, but downhill running was so refreshing and gave me the feeling of freedom.  i also enjoyed the cheering of the staff in the different stations and other joggers along the way. they helped me push myself to run and reach the finish line.

i was just so eager to reach the finish line that reaching it made me even forget all about how much time i spent.  it was a weird feeling but i was nearly to tears after finishing. i find it really funny how i can still be too emotional even with my running.  Pilosopong Komikero and i were joking that this run is going to be one of the milestones in my life.  haha, recalling the teary-eyed-moment still sends me to laugh out loud.

as usual, i wasn't lucky with the special prizes given away.  Rice Queen, Dancing Queen, and 5 ft 8 got lucky to receive gift packs from one of the sponsors of the run.  Ms. Dotie treated herself with free coffee.  while i took advantage of the freebies given away (a tubler and a fabric conditioner for babies, :( sayang.. maybe i'll send it to heaven huh?)..

with ms ava

there were also add ons to the event.  for instance,  the music and the cute mascots of the different sponsors were present and contributed to the fun.  its happy to note that a lot of people still enjoy the company of mascots. i had fun with the inflated slide, it was like flying in a flash.  fun. super fun. :)

and since its my first 10k run,  i also thought that i should make it more special. i decided to run with this special posting on my back as my way of telling the world that i will continue to embrace and live my life to the fullest.  my way of thanking my God for every chance to show the world that i have opened my heart for more love and i will super try hard to make it last that way.  my way of thanking my God that i am ready to embrace his plans for me. eat, pray, run, and love. :)

until the next run then.
tata!

032011sunday

whiteSWAN

may nagsabi sa akin noon na ang salitang mahalaga ay kombinasyon daw ng dalawang salita, mahal at alaga.. ibig sabihin lang daw noon, kapag sinabi mong mahal mo ang isang tao, kailangan ay maparamdam mo sa taong iyon na handa kang alagaan siya sa lahat ng paraan na kaya at alam mo..

may nakilala akong isang babae.. una ko siyang nakita noon na sumasayaw.. naaalala ko pa ang mukha niya habang sumasayaw siya.. namumutawi sa mukha niya noon na masaya siya sa ginagawa niya.. ngiti niyay'y matatamis at nagsasabing siya'y malaya..

pero iba ang mukhang nakaharap ko kanina.. oo nga't may ngiti sa kanyang  mga labi, pero ramdam ko din na sa likod ng mga ngiti niya ay isang babaeng nag hahanap ng mahigpit na yakap at lakas na makakapitan.. ramdam ko ang pag alaga niya sa isang munting binhi na pinili niyang alagaan.. ramdam ko ang takot niyang masaktan ito at mawala kalaunan.. batid ng puso ko ang sobrang hangad niyang manatili at ipaglaban ang pinili niyang nasimulan..

hindi ako nahirapan na makita kung sino siya.. hindi rin ako nahirapan na intindihin kung ano ang dinadala ng puso niya.. marahil ay nakita ko ang sarili ko sa kanya.. bigla kong natanong sa sarili ko, bakit kailangan masaktan ang mga taong totoo lang kung mag mahal.. haist.. shit really happens huh?.. life just isn't fair.. pero ganun eh, ganun lang talaga ang ikot ng buhay..

naaala ko pa, may ilang tao na hindi rin ako naintindihan o maintindihan kung paano ko tingnan at paniwalaan ang pag ibig at pag mamahal.. sa mata ng ilan, naging tanga pa ako.. may ilan din na tinawag akong martyr.. may ilan na hinayaan ako sa mga prosesong pinagdadaanan, at may ilan din na sumuko na lang sa akin.. ang totoo, hindi mahalaga sa akin kung ano ang tingin ng iba sa puso at isip ko.. dahil para sa akin, hanggat alam ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko, ilalaban ko ito hanggat kaya ko.. gaano man ito katagal abutin, ako lang ang may hawak at may alam ng totoong nararamdaman ko.. hindi mahalaga kung nasasaktan ako hanggat alam ko na nagmamahal pa rin ako..

sa aking pag uwi, bigla kong natanong sa sarili ko, ano kaya ang mga kwentong susunod?.. ano kaya ang mga pakiramdam na dadaan sa mga darating na araw.. anong uri kaya ng umaga ang babati at anong uri ng musika ang maririnig sa bawat takipsilim..

hai.. hindi ko alam kung anong ibig sabihin ng buntong hininga ko ngayon.. pero gusto kong isipin na buntong hininga ito na umaasa at naghihintay na isang nakangiting haring araw ang babati sa bukas na darating..

nais ko siyang makitang sumayaw muli.. hangad kong masilayan na kasama ng sayaw niya ay isang mukhang ngumingiti ng malaya at pusong nakangiti dahil busog nito sa pag aalaga..

sa ngayon, ibubulong ko muna sa langit ang mga kahilingang ito..

031911sabado

faithfullyYOURS

sungha jung on piano.. this kid never fails to take my soul away with his music.. :)



i close my eyes and imagine myself slow dancing in a field of wild flowers.. i greet the sunshine with wide-stretched arms as my form of surrender..

sungha jung smiles (this aint so common)..



i breathe in love and life.. i breathe in happiness and peace. i breathe out as i let go of my fears.. i smile and thank God for this heart.. my heart..

still beating with the same music.. faithfully.. :)

031711thursday

sugarRUSH

the road to diabetes.. geezzz! so sorry slurpee!!

you are way-tooooo-sweeeeet for me..

031611wednesday

(oh, hello Pilosopo Tasyo)

secretRECIPES

you know how love can really be so amazing that it can let people turn 360 degrees just to respond to that call to simply love to the fullest? i have always believed in the magic of love, but recently, i got more confirmations about things that revolve around this concept. i have come to believe that really, love can move mountains.. :)



living. loving. and learning.
letting go. letting be.
waiting. exploring. dating.
one day, he'll find his perfect match.

eating. praying. loving. running. and loving still.

letting God. letting be.

she will wait (you know she'd say that).

one day, she'll have that one day..

loving. falling. and loving more.
hoping. believing.
he's not the hopeless romantic.
one day, he will be.. 

letting go is to fear less and to find peace.

one day, fear will go and he will learn to love again.

never gave up. never gave in.

never left.

she's still the same.

one day, she'll soar the endless skies.

won't let love steal what's uniquely him. you means you. i means i.but believe that i love you.

one day, he will know what we are talking about.

love can make two people hug all day long. love can make you choose to leave your comfort zones. love can simply mean sending smiles. love can make you cook adobo. and love can turn cupcakes to freesbies.

3 pastas.

1 pizza.

bottomless water.

3 souls.

1 night.

different poles.

at the end of the day,

love will still reign.

always.

031511tuesday

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pastaPERFECTION

i went out to dinner with Pilosopong Komikero and Sweet September. we tried the pasta offerings of pizza hut.. make sure to try them out too!

Spaghetti al Pesto. its your spaghetti noodles cooked in pesto sauce made more exciting by the black olives and chopped almonds.  heavenly!

Spaghetti Shrimp, garlic and mushroom. spaghetti on garlic-butter sauce topped with shrimps and mushrooms. oohlala!

Pesto chicken penne.  penne noodles cooked in pesto and cream-based sauce with small chunks of chicken. creamyliciuos!

it was a night of great food, friendship, and a celebration of love's magic.

this monday wasn't so bad after all.

031411

monday